first of all, it's not about my real brothers but my "other" brother, he's a close friend that i call and regard as big brother ..
anyway, you should've known about the accident, well .. the operation was successful, i was waiting, quite long and it felt uneasy, i was like .. why he hasn't come out yet ? is everything okay ? .. you know .. all that uneasy feeling ..
well, when i saw him on the bed getting ready to be transferred to the operation room, i just couldn't hold my tears, i don't know why .. i was just afraid and worry .. maybe people will laugh at you for crying, but that was what i felt, it was really sad when you see someone's close to you getting ready for the operation .. especially when the worst case scenario was playing on my mind all the time . it's not a good feeling ..
well, he's okay now, he's back home, hopefully i'll be able to visit him soon .. don't know when though, i'm busy with my exams now, so i send him sms or call him to check what's goin' on with him ..
when we ( me & my other 4 friends) were waiting for the operation, we just felt guilty when his mother told us that we should be careful on the escalator, if not we'll end up like my big bro, but the truth is, that's not what happened .. all the things that his mum said to us were making us more and more guilty .. if only he heard what she said to us, he might cry ..
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