last night i chatted with my friend from Bangkok .. i'll cut to the chase and start where it got interesting .. it was about my display name on MSN which is "it's hard to care bout someone when they don't care bout you"
so it went something like this (i've translated it to English) ..
she : your nick is funny
me : it's how i feel what can i do ..
she : it shouldn't be like that . we can't expect anything in return when we give to someone
me : it's not like i want something in return . but i'm a pushover and always say yes to everything and people like to take advantage . so, for once i want someone to care about me because i care about them.
well . she didn't reply then signed off ..
i was thinking if i were egotistical to think so . but the scenario where i sacrificed my time and energy for people that i love and care was playing on my head . and so i thought . it wasn't ego but it was a need to get respected from them for what i did and i don't it's ego . 'cause i don't get that a lot ...
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